I’m addicted to food. Growing up I have been mostly a “skinny” girl. I’m 5 foot 6 inches and used to weigh 130 pounds. I could eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I have never been too concerned about eating right or about my weight. I wont say I didn’t “think” I was fat, because I did, off and on, many times, but now, looking back, I wish I could slap my ridiculous self and make that girl of olden-days love her body. I mean, look at these photos from my past.
See! A healthy weight, size 7/8. No reason to think I was fat. Ever!
Now let’s take a look at this 2006 photo. That was only months before I found out I was pregnant with my first child. This is where my addiction to food began.
When you’re pregnant you have an excuse to eat and I used it a lot. I gained nearly 60 pounds with my first child. My favorite place to eat? Taco Bell. I would order the crunchwrap supreme meal. So that’s a large crunch wrap, a hard taco, and a 32 ounce soda. Another favorite? The foot long chili cheese dogs with chili cheese tots. Oh man, just typing this out makes me hungry. I’m nearly drooling over here.
Flash forward a bit. After the birth of my baby, I walked a lot and lost most of the “baby” weight. I was back down to 135 pounds.
See to your right the photo of 2008…Same pants!
A few months later and I was pregnant with my youngest child. Let the eating begin!
The one day that sticks out to me most was when I was pregnant with my youngest. That was the day I ate five bowls of cocoa puffs cereal. Yes I said five bowls, and that was before noon. I did however throw up most of it. Morning sickness came late that day. So with baby number two I gained 100 pounds. I was lucky that was all that happened to me. It could have been much worse for myself and my baby. Here is a full term belly photo:
WOW!, look at that baby belly. Yes that is just one baby in there. After my son was born the eating never really stopped. To this day, 5 years later, I am still eating for two. If I didn’t have two kids to chase after and a job that requires a lot of running up and down stairs, I would be a lot heavier than I am now.
My current favorite food to indulge in is Sushi.
My other weaknesses? Energy drinks and sweets.
Food is to me what sex is like to the nympho. I can’t seem to go but an hour or so without thinking about food or eating it.
I talk about it and think about it. I look it up on the internet, and most definitely eat it.
Currently sushi is my favorite but, the truth is, I love all food. I love to smell it, touch it, taste it, gaze upon its glory, and bask in its ambience.
I literally make sex noises while talking about food sometimes. Yeah it’s that bad.
My stomach is currently growling.
So now that I’m hungry what am I doing about it. Well I use to admit this problem to people and just keep eating.
It didn’t bother me because I wasn’t grotesque, and loved eating everything!
However two weeks ago something clicked, or blew up, or hell, I don’t know, but I’m ready to change. I woke up deciding I wasn’t going to allow food to take control any more. I have tried this before in the past and get discourage within a week and quit. This time I’m determined. I use to eat around 2000 calories or more in a day. I would drink energy drinks up to 3 times a day some days. So I know this is going to be a major struggle. I started by downloading My Fitness Pal app again. It still had my goal weight (135 lbs) and everything setup. What a surprise, I haven’t lost any weight since the last time I used it (185 lbs). It suggests I only eat 1200 calories a day. Do you know how many calories are in one can of energy drink? 210 and I would drink 3 of those in a day. That’s over 600 calories in just energy drinks!
So this is where my journey begins. Stay tuned for more to come….This will be a regular series on fridays. Next post of this series will be about my first few days and how I made it.