Chaotic Kristy

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Fitness struggles and goals

I am a mother of 2 and a full-time worker in the IT field. My job is mostly sedimentary. I hate sitting for long periods at a time, but lately, have been getting in trouble for leaving my desk. 🙂

I am currently 185 to 193lbs most days. I am an emotional eater. I have been trying to identify my eating triggers, but mostly wind up digging in the fridge to find whatever it is I’m craving at the time. I am an energy drink drinker to the core. I try my best to quit but always go back. I have cut them down to one a day but I am always so exhausted and I get migraines when I don’t drink at least one.

I have a gym membership at the YMCA. Lately, I have been getting myself to the gym around 3 to 4 times a week. My focus in the gym lately has been weight lifting. I was using the machines but they bore me. I did some researched and talked with some friends and decided to try free weights. I love it! I love how it challenges me and how sore I feel later. (not bad sore but the good sore, the sore that lets you know it’s working) I’m also training with the couch to 5k program (c25k app). I’ve tried this program in the past and loved it, however, my shins give me a lot of trouble and I ultimately quit.

In the gym I get intimidated by all the people around. Mostly because I don’t know exactly what I’m doing, but also because I will get anxiety when there are more than 4 people in the weight room with me. Sometimes this will cause me to cut my visit short. I have been using the bodyspace app and bodybuilding.com website to help me with my confidence. Plus, I enjoy listening to a good playlist of loud music to drown out the mental noise.

I cannot lift much in weight, as in I cannot lift a bare barbell bar and I have been using 5lb dumbbells for some moves and not more than 15lb dumbbells for others. I cannot even do 1 push-up.

My current goal is to be able to do 5 regular push-ups, bench press a barbell, complete a 5k and stop drinking energy drinks for good.

After a work out 6-20-17

After a work out 6-20-17

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